โ๐ฎโโ๐ณโ โ๐ฆโ โ๐ฉโโ๐ทโโ๐ชโโ๐ฆโโ๐ฒโ โ๐พโโ๐ดโโ๐บโ โ๐ธโโ๐ฆโโ๐ผโ โ๐ฆโ โ๐ผโโ๐ฆโโ๐พโ โ๐นโโ๐ดโ โ๐ธโโ๐บโโ๐ทโโ๐ปโโ๐ฎโโ๐ปโโ๐ชโ โ๐ฆโโ๐ณโโ๐ฉโ โ๐พโโ๐ดโโ๐บโ โ๐ผโโ๐ชโโ๐ทโโ๐ชโ โ๐ซโโ๐บโโ๐ฑโโ๐ฑโ โ๐ดโโ๐ซโ โ๐ฏโโ๐ดโโ๐พโ
we have phones and so then we are phones. i think this to myself as i walk myself to go pray at a pew even though the doors are locked, knowing i have faith. knowing god delivers. it is raining outside and god delivers me to you, soaking wet and sopping. and so we are exalted. and now my phone doesnโt work anymore
(ใฃโโกโ)ใฃ โฅ ๐ฐ ๐ ๐ธ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ด๐ ๐ด๐ฝ๐ ๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ฝ ๐ท๐ฐ๐ ๐ด ๐ธ๐ฝ๐ต๐ธ๐ฝ๐ธ๐ ๐ด๐ป๐ ๐ผ๐ฐ๐ฝ๐ ๐ธ๐ฝ๐ ๐ด๐ ๐ฟ๐ ๐ด๐ ๐ฐ๐ ๐ธ๐พ๐ฝ๐ โฅ
iโm 8 and my dad is explaining to me how the phone works both ways. the phone works both ways but iโm f*cking 8 and i have t ball practice in t minus 2 hours and my mom is forcing me to talk to my dad on the phone, while i am here and he is not
i try and enunciate this correctly
are you gonna be at my game tonight
i am 8 and a prophet. this is because he says no. i knew this when i asked the question. it is glaringly obvious to me at the time of this event transpiring that the ramifications of the phone going both ways is going to, pejoratively, f*ck up the rest of my life as an 8 year old. i acknowledge, and let go. i give my mommy the phone back. and iโm only f*cking 8.
โถโโปโโ โ โโโพโโฝโโบโโ โถโโถโพโโ โโบโถโโโ โทโถโน โ โบโโ โโบ (ยด๏ฝกโข ฯ โข๏ฝก`)
payment comes to me in the force of a 40mph pitch immediately f*cking me in the ribcage. i am bruised for weeks.
the It was being blocked by the towel used to secure my hand me down helmet in place. i pitched too good for the other pitcher on the other team at the cross county conference.
the next year i get my teeth knocked out for hitting a home run
i have no idea when i am 12 that these are canonical visions into my future
๐ ๐ ๐ถ ๐ท ๐ ๐ ๐ถ ๐ ๐พ ๐ ๐ ๐พ ๐ ๐ถ ๐ป ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ป ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐พ ๐ ๐ (ใ ห_ห)ใโฟโฟโฟโฟโฟโฟ
weโre up late in the dark and iโm talking to u on my way home and at home. i never remember the content of what you say to me as much as i remember, your voice in my hair and how windy it is. you go on a trip and come home and call me. we have this conversation. you recallโ days laterโ we shouldnโt have talked about sex. i recallโ you standing in the rain, asking me why the first thing you do when you come back is call me.
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
there is a big machine in a locked room next to the service desk that counts money. you drop your drawers into it at night. i have three drawers to drop at the end of every shift. the machine is heavy and metal and always warm. the room is warm. the room smells like money. there is a camera monitor and a white fan which guard the entrance to the door. the door weighs like 5 of me and locks automatically. i stack my three drawers on the top of the machine (dubbed โberthaโ). bertha is weirdly tall for a machine and reaches to right about my chest. i am too scared to touch my pockets or open my phone when i drop the drawers. bertha supports my arms while i wait for my cash to deposit. i am hyper aware that the tapes will be surveilled later. this ritual takes 8-12 minutes. i clock out late.
ยดใฃฯ=`) โแขร เผ รแขโ โแก-แท ยทฬซ -แทแกโ โ^โธโธ> ยทฬซ <โธโธ ^โ(ยด,,>ฯ<,,`)โก เธ ีโข๏ปโขีเธ โแข> ฬซ<แขโ (ยด๏ฝฅฯ๏ฝฅ`):( ;ยด๊ณ`;) โแกเถ ฬซเถแกโ แกโธโธ> ฬซ <โธโธแก โแก-แท ยทฬซ -แทแกโโธ(*หแห*)โธ ูฉฬ(หโขอ ๊ด โขอห)ู (ใพ๏พ๏ฝฅฯ๏ฝฅ`)(เนยด`เน)โก หฬฃฬฃฬฅแท แด หฬฃฬฃฬฅแท โแก แง ๏ป แง แก (โธโธยบ ^ ยบโธโธ )( หแตห ; ) ( แด ฬซ แด ) (เนโกโโกเน) โธ(๏ฝกห แต ห )โธโแขหถโข ห เธแขโ เซฎโ หฬตอแท . หฬตอแท โแ โแขโข๏ปโขแขโ แฆ(เฉญใปใจใป)แฃแโธโแ ( ยดอ แจ `อ ) เนยด ยณ`)๏พ เฌ( เบดโขแบโข )เบดเฌ ๊ฐห๊ณหเน๊ฑเป(๏ผพแดฅ๏ผพ)เฅญ โ๊ฐโ ยด๊ณ` โ๊ฑโ ห แต ห ( โขฯโขเธ )สยทแดฅยทส (เนยดใ `เน) (เนโขฬ โ โขฬเน) เธ( เบดแตฬดฬถฬทฬค ๏ป แตฬดฬถฬทฬค )เบดเธ ีโข๏ปโขีเธ (ยดเนโข_โขเน) แห ๊ ห แ โหยทอเผยทอหโโ ฬฬ(ใ ยด ห `) (ห โ หเด ) (โแดอหฌแดอ) โโ แข..แขโ เซฎโโขแทโเกโโขแท โแ